“Relax, Recharge and Reflect. Sometimes it’s OK to do nothing.”
– Izey Victoria Odiase
The last time I wrote a post here was back in July, just before I went away for a trip with my family for a week. I really needed to get away and was hoping by the time I come back, I will be pumped up and swing back into full throttle with my blog.
BUT that wasn’t the case, I went MIA on my blog.
The whole month passed by and I did not write a single post nor did I make an effort for it. I just couldn’t get myself into it, I was lost, confused and started doubting my ability to write.
The excuses of why I couldn’t write started piling up. And it’s definitely not because I did not care about it, in fact the opposite was true, I cared so much that everytime I wanted to write, I was getting overwhelmed on what to write about.
So I decided to take a break, and reflect on what was preventing me from writing.
I started getting some answers to my anxiety and lack of effort with my writing.
Overthinking
I was overthinking every single step as to what, when and how to write a piece, that it made me get stuck before I even started.
This slowly turned into imposter syndrome, and I started doubting if I can really write and run a successful blog.
Perfectionism
I kept striving for perfectionism in every post in every sense possible. Is the topic good enough? Is my research enough? Is the writing perfect?
It was exhausting to even figure out what to write about, nevertheless to write it.
Making Time
Truth be told, the more overwhelmed I was with the blog, I started diverting my time and energy into other parts of my life, leaving no time for writing.
Even when I would have some time, I made sure to do something other than write.
Contentment
I started this blog to motivate myself to write more and to see if I can start a successful business out of it.
But I also wanted to reach readers, help them, inspire them to start something they love and be an example. But I wasn’t sure if I was really doing that with my writings.
Every post I wrote, it became like work which I didn’t enjoy but rather writing because I had to.
And to be honest, I didn’t want it to feel like “work”, I wanted to look forward to writing and not be discouraged by it.
Finding My Way
I didn’t want my blog to reflect any other ones, I want it to have my own unique style and characteristic.
I want to stay true to my way of writing, my thoughts and my identity.
The information I was to put out there, should be reflected through my own experience and have a personal touch.
Cup of Final Thoughts ????
One of the best things I have started is this blog. It is my very own slate that I can use to inspire and help others.
It is up to me to make it what it is meant to be and more.
Taking this break made me realise, my writing can be enough and it will be for those who need it.
I need to believe in my writing and in myself before I can inspire others.
